Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) TwelveAfter that day, I let Matt smoke whenever he wanted to, except inside my apartment. The weekend came, and we decided to take a day off. It probably wasn't the best idea, but the others were working on the Kira case still, so one day wouldn't hurt. I just wished that Mello didn't have the idea to go swimming. There's a pool outside my apartment building, and he wanted to check it out.
I sighed, "I don't want to go swimming."
"Why?" Mello asked.
"I just don't. I don't need a reason," I insisted. The truth was, I hated wearing swimsuits, especially when the only one I owned was a bikini. The last thing I needed was for Mello to see me in a bikini, he'd tease the heck out of me.
"Please!" He begged.
I groaned, "Fine, but I'm not doing the dishes tonight."
"Deal," He grinned.
Mello, Near, Matt, and I got into our swimsuits and out to the pool. I tried keeping my towel wrapped around me for as long as I could.
Mello was first to dive in. Near just sat down in a chair, reading a book.
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) ElevenIt was settled then. Once we entered headquarters, Matt threw out his last cigarette, and gave me his handheld video game.
"Welcome back, Alessandra," Light greeted. "How have you been?"
"I've been alright. I'm sorry I was out. Did I miss anything?" I asked.
He shook his head, "Nothing but the usual killings."
I told Light what he should tell the others, helped Near fix a computer problem, and went into the room where my work waited. Matt was there, typing on the computer.
"How's it going?" I asked. We both knew it meant, 'How's it going without cigarettes?'
"So far, it's not bothering me too much. It's just a light craving right now. I know it will get worse later, though," He said.
"I know you can do it," Even though it was a bet, a little encouragement felt right.
We worked for a few hours, until it was lunch time. Mello came in with sandwiches for us. We thanked him, and he left to go back to working.
"Are you okay?" I asked.
"I'm fine, why?" He sounded in pain.
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) TenI smiled a sad smile, "My heart has enough room. I'm sorry, too. I should've thought about how you'd feel. L's dead and I should accept the fact that I'll never get him back."
"Well, now that you two have made up, I'm leaving," Mello left the room.
I yawned, tired. I lied my head down on my fluffy purple pillow, and closed my eyes. My eyes burned as they shut, meaning I really needed sleep. I guessed that the bags under my eyes were like panda eyes, dark circles ringed around them. When Matt lay down beside me, the bed got warmer. His fingers ran through my tangled hair. It calmed me, a bit. He put his free arm around me, pulling me closer to him. I fell asleep soon afterwards.
"Alessa," A musical voice whispered.
"Mmmm?" I was too tired to say real words. I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn't.
"We have to go to headquarters soon.... unless you're sick still."
"No.... I'm uh.... fine......" I murmured. "Tired...."
"Open your eyes," The voice sounded close.
I forced my eye
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) Nine"You love me? But what about L?" Matt questioned.
"I still do love L," I informed him. I went to sit on the bed.
"If you love L, why did you say you love me? And why did you kiss me?" He asked.
"I wouldn't have kissed you if I didn't love you more," I said almost the exact words L said to me.
I wouldn't have kissed you if I didn't have feelings for you.
Hearing L's voice in my mind made me shiver. I wished I could see him living again.
"Are you cold?" He asked. I shook my head. "Then, what's wrong?"
Tears filled my eyes, I put my head between my knees. "I still miss him..." I knew I was confusing him. I was confusing myself. I was supposed to be over L. I was supposed to. But, no matter how many times I told myself I was over L, even with the dream, I couldn't. I just couldn't. If L was here, would I really still love Matt more? Am I just using Matt so my heart can stay together?
"You miss him..... Alessa, he's dead!" Matt yelled. "There's nothing you can do to change that. H
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) Eight"I do not look like a girl!" Mello fumed.
"Did we make the girly angry?" I teased. It was my turn for payback.
"Shut up," He muttered.
I grinned, feeling accomplished. When I saw Mello's twisted grin I knew something was up. He was planning something.
Then Mello asked, "Aren't you going to eat your dinner?"
"I am eating it," I lied, twirling it around with the fork.
"Prove it," He challenged.
"Fine," I picked up a piece of pasta twirled on the fork, and started eating it. What's he getting at?
"Can I try some? I bet it's gross," Mello said.
I nodded, still chewing. It was a long piece of pasta.
He picked up a piece and put it in his mouth. Then I knew what he was doing. The pasta ends were connected. He was trying to kiss me again! I spit the piece of pasta into the bowl.
"You sicken me," I stood up, about to walk out of the room.
Matt knew what happened too, so did Near. Matt looked like he was about to try and murder Mello again, while Near just looked stunned.
"Wait," Mello begged.
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) SevenMaybe L would be okay if I moved on. Maybe I'd be okay too. Conflicting emotions ran through me. Some told me that I shouldn't have done that, yet some told me that I should do it again.
I sighed, annoyed with myself, yet proud at the same time.
"Are you okay, Alessa?" His voice drew me from my thoughts.
"Huh? Yeah, I'm okay," I lied.
"Do you want anything for breakfast? You probably shouldn't have much, considering that you're still sick. You might throw it up," He reminded me. I was sick! I shouldn't have kissed him. Now he's sure to be missing work, too. If we're always out of headquarters, Light will be threatening to take control of Near's duties.
"No, I'm fine," I sat on my bed, dangling my feet from the side.
"Did you even eat yesterday?" He asked.
"Yes," I lied.
"You're lying," Matt said. "For one, Mello told me that you refused to eat, and for two, you always have a worried look on your face when you lie. Like, when I asked you if you were alright." How is he the least sm
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) Six"Alessa, you sleep in your bed, and I'll go out into the living room with my sleeping bag," Matt said, about to leave the room.
"Are you scared you'll get sick?" I questioned.
"No, I just thought you'd want your privacy," He guessed.
"Will you stay in here tonight?" I asked. "I don't want to be alone."
Matt nodded, putting back down his sleeping bag
"You don't have to sleep there," I sat down on my bed.
"I'm not letting you slee-"
I cut him off, "I don't mean that I would sleep in the sleeping bag. You can sleep with me."
"Not like that!" I assured. "Mello's right, you do have a sick mind."
"Oh, well, I guess, then," He said. I could tell he was holding back a smile.
I lied down in my bed, closing my eyes. About three minutes later, I felt the bed shake, and warmth lying beside me.
"Oh my god, you don't think they did anything, do you?" A voice sounded worried, but at the same time amused.
"I don't know... Do you think they would?" A different, sweeter voice, an
Stripes (The Second Death Note FanFic) FiveMy head hung low as I admitted the truth to Mello. His responce was understanding and sweet.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to tease you before. I didn't know what you were going through," Mello apologized.
"It's alright. I just wish I knew what my heart wanted. One side is saying, 'I'll never love anyone else but L', but the other side is telling me that L would want me to move on, that I should try and build a relationship with Matt. But, even if I did choose Matt, who knows if he'd like me back..."
"Oh, he likes you back," Mello said. "He wouldn't shut up about you. And earlier, I practically had to tie him up in the car to get him to go with Near. He has seriously fallen for you. I'm actually surprised. I thought his only love was Zelda, but then he met you. But, it's going to be hard to get him to admit his feelings for you. If I were you, I'd just kiss him, not that I would, because I'm a guy, but you know."
I nodded, "But, I'm not sure if my heart will let me..."